Oh, yes, Mandy girl, you are so very much loved! We've loved you from the start and although you may never be with us again, we will love you always. You brought so much into our lives that I don't know how we'll go on without you. At this point, I really don't want to try. My heart is shattered and there are no words to describe the pain. It hurts! It hurts so bad! Sometimes I feel as though I will die with pain this great. Losing you has been like losing a human child and I know now how grief-stricken parents are when their human child is missing without a trace.

 

And I'm angry at this point. I'm angry with myself, with God, and with you. I should have checked on you sooner. You shouldn't have left. God shouldn't put more suffering into your tiny self. Why? Why?

 

Maybe one day, the tears will stop. Maybe one day, the pain won't be as great. That someday is far away. In my heart, I don't suppose I will ever give up hope of your finding your way back to us. I will never accept that you are dead.

 

I hope you know how very much we have loved you and how grateful to you we are for giving us so much of yourself.

Mandy, we were so lucky the day you found us! Although my heart is breaking right now, I wouldn't trade those precious days and years with you for anything.

 

We didn't rescue you - you rescued us.